“Friendship is a narrow street, once lovers can never turn back to be friends.”
I guess we are done labelling our relationship, I am mad for you, and you are love to me. We both love our company more than of anyone else. I want to start my day seeing your face everyday, I want to wake up every day next to you. Yeah yeah… I know you are stuck somewhere else, we can’t be lover but being your friend is not easy for me, I truly agree to your point, you may be in love with someone else or whatever be the reason. I know you are disturbed or confused, What if your confused condition is disturbing me each fucking day? What if I am losing my mental peace thinking over it? What if I am losing my self respect ? ……….., leave…. I can’t even share it with you.. If I did, either I will end up losing you or I am gonna lose that bonding with you, not sharing it to you will will end up hurting even more. I may not be the perfect one for you, I have many flaws but I can grantee you, no one can love you more than I do. but saath rehne ke liye pyaar thodi na kaafi hota hai… Let’s end the conservation on this note, whatever remains after that is pure passion, something a mad lover in me craves. Something within you enjoys.
Yeah I know once we enter to this street, we ll end up ruining our pure friendship.. but girl! I still get goosebumps thinking about it. My heart sinks, my heart feel soft inside and hard in the places where it should. I can feel your hands on mine and the that touch giving me a relief in my heart. Yesss!!! I want to enjoy your company every fucking day. I have this uncontrollable urge to sink into you, kiss your neck and say – baby, you are mine. I want to savour you. I want to say unfinished poems to you. I want to write a complete book on you, if there is someone who can make one night a lifelong memory, you can be that to me.
I know – friendship is a narrow street, once lovers can never turn back to be friends. And I have no fucking idea about that line now. Where the hell that line exists. I just want to pick up my phone and hear in your voice that you are mine. I want one kiss nothing else, for one – 5 minute kiss. You’d think why this gibberish? Why can’t he say all these things in front of you, trust me I want to. And trust me, the day I will say these things face to face, all gibberish will become a beautiful poem with our body providing the rhythm. Till then, please don’t be my friend, don’t be my lover. Just be my therapy. I need you. I want you, more than ever. may be forever.
I don’t know why I want to have that tapri ki adrak wali chai, and after having that tea I want a walk on a empty road with you. Watching that street light shining – and – watching your features turn into a beautiful silhouette. As the late evening would sink into darkness and I hold you close to kiss you under this crescent moon – I want to smell the taste of your beautiful skin. I don’t care about ‘I love yous.’ I want an beautiful evening with you. Something I can call mine even after I get old. Whenever I ll be alone sitting on a couch holding a cup of tea, I will wrap myself in the memory of that evening to keep myself warm with each sip of that adrak wali chai. Give me that. Not a lifelong commitment. Just a hot as that chai wali memory.
In the end I just want you to tell me whether you are in love with me or I am just a attraction to you? Whenever you feel like in the most stable condition in the world just come to me, hold my hand, look into my eyes… and say it all whatever is inside you. It may be in my favour or it may not be in my favour, but trust me it will be best for both of us. You won’t be confused anymore. I ll be confirm about my place in your heart. No… No… I wont leave you, I ll be there to see you smiling even after that. No! not to show my love for you, just because I am selfish. You know your smile is contagious for me. I get that sukoon wali feeling, when you smile.
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